Karmic Ashanti

When god made us, it was said,

It was Adam and Eve but now they’re dead.

We came on, on our ways,

Discriminated god and even his face.

Different religion and different prayers,

Different castes but who fuckin’ cares.

Breakin’ this and buildin’ that,

Demolishing faith, we once had.

With anger within and hate in our hearts,

We’re getting’ nowhere, we are jus’ fallin apart!

CHORUS

Confusion, destruction, curiosity,

Tantra’s and the unseen serenity.

Illusion, dreams, reality

Mantra’s and the karmic Ashanti.

Killin’ each other, just to rule the world,

We are all losers, fucked up and skulled.

With no love, care or emotions,

Feelings are dead, known as compositions.

Their ain’t no equality, their ain’t no one,

Two different colors, a pistol and a gun.

Switch on the lights and take a look at your face,

You are dying every second, you’ve dug your own grave.

Nothing will work unless you do,

Because there’s only one god and it resides in you!

CHORUS x 4

Say your prayers before it’s too late,

Hurry up…it’s time to desegregate!

DATED – 05-04-2004

That’s the way I am

I was born in the wilds, don’t know the fuckin’ place,

Ain’t got know religion, ain’t got no filthy race.

Played the ol’ strings and drank  all day,

By the time I was 12, I was makin’ my own way.

Got my first rock band, called devil’s insane,

Blew up all the bucks in the flood of cocaine.

Lived 9 to 5, blowin’ up all the pain,

Slept in the trippin’ streets, boy mus’ been in vain!

Broke my own heart for the one I couldn’t love,

For she was my favorite mistake, sent from above.

Life isn’t easy for a hippie like me,

I have learnt how to rock, that’s why I’m called, BLADE!

CHORUS

Love me or leave me, I don’t fuckin’ give a damn,

I’m a fuckin’ hardcore bastard, that’s  the way I am.

Take me or break me but make it fuckin’ sound wham,

I’m the ugliest sin of the devil and that’s who I am.

Thrill me or kill me, I ain’t changin’ for the glam,

For fuckin’ sake, I was born this way and that’s the way I am!

I ain’t got no companion, ain’t got no bitchy mate,

I’m one metallic ascetic, never believin’ in anythin’ straight.

She once said, I got a blackheart, that never bleeds,

For love , it fuckin’ stinks it’s somethin’ I don’t need.

I don’t know where I am goin’, jus riddin’ this life through,

Because I ain’t got no destination, I’m a rider on the move.

Tequila burnin’ in my veins and gasoline burnin’ below,

I call it my O2, somethin’ that you call dope.

They call me a natural born killer, it’s the look in my eyes,

For I never wish to go to heaven, it’s hell where I wanna die.

I don’t know what’s comin’ and don’t give a fuck for the past,

I’m a muthafukin’ rebel, livin’ it with a blast!

CHORUS x 2

DATED – 02-04-2004

Ice Cold fire

5 am, the blood runs cold,

Drippin’ down, like an old man’s soul.

Another tick and another tock,

Here comes one more, for the sex, drugs and rock!

I hear your voice, it’s like a call of the wild,

I smell your breath, it’s the smell of a denial.

Put out your hands but don’t reach for me,

I’m the sanity’s sin, I can change your puberty.

A few more seconds and you’re gonna see it right here,

Get ready muthafukas, it’s time to disappear!

CHORUS

Ice cold fire, is what I said,

Am I fuckin’ trippin’ or am I dead?

Ice cold fire, I get no sleep,

Am I in love or am I jus’ fallin’ too deep.

Ice cold fire, runnin’ through my veins,

Am I breathin’ opium or piscin’ down the acid lane

Ice cold fire, come and taste me oh yeah,

I’m better then a disease, I’m the last messiah!

One more day and the same ol’ shit,

They call me a bastard because the condom split.

I’m a sinner with a blade in my heart,

Don’t think of lovin’ me, you’re gonna tear self apart.

I ain’t my mama’s boy because I shot her in the ass,

I’ve come a long way, eatin’, ass, gas and grass!

Don’t turn your face, I know the devil in you,

Waiting to be scratched, come and scratch me too.

You came with vengeance, you came with pride,

You came with dignity, that I can’t describe.

Run away fast and never come back,

Because, I’m the devil they call, nativity in black!

CHORUS x 2

Ice cold fire, the nites breakin’ in,

I’m the nativity in black, with the ugliest sin!

DATED – 24-03-2004

This is how!!!

I’ve been livin’ my life on the six strings,

Playin’ real hard without my eyes being blinked,

Sittin’ in the smokey room with the cigarette buds all around,

Tryin’ to smoke the ol’ hash and not lettin’ the ash fall down.

But sometimes I think , what am I tryin’ na do,

Even god ain’t got no answers, he’s busy smokin’ up too.

But someday, I will and someday I know,

Because I’ve been fucked real hard and I’m lettin’ the wounds grow.

CHORUS

This is how I live, this is how I die,

I ain’t got no answers for livin’ this life.

This is how I love, this is how I hate,

I’m just a part of time, who the fuck believes in fate.

This is how I laugh, this is how I cry,

I’m not one of you, I’m just an ordinary guy.

This is where it starts and never fuckin’ ends,

My soul is a journey, it’s my life that’s for rent.

With empty bots’ in the corner and the some still fillin’ up the room,

I try to lite the joint but seems like it’s too soon.

My eyes all red and tears rollin’ down,

With the guitar still in my hand but their ain’t no sound.

Wanna have some more and I wana have loads,

Wanna have so much, so I blow up my toads.

I wanna black out and commit the last sin,

To hell with ya’ll, after all this is the best thin’.

CHORUS x 2

And if ya thought I’m done, then have your last blink,

I’m ready to rock ya bitch, ready to do my own thin!

DATED – 23-03-2004

Ashes of blood

Gone are the days, it’s all a past,

We thought, we’d make history, oh yeah! It felt like a blast!

The clocks have ticked and the moons up

The nights washing out and I’m all fucked.

We ain’t got nothing but memories of different kind

The eyes all wet but the tears are hard to find.

Everything dies and nothin’ here remains,

For hurt is so beautiful ad vengeance is insane.

CHORUS

It’s all gone and I know it’s out in the cold,

It’s all burning slowly and I can feel it in my soul.

It’s too late for you to ask me why,

It’s completely hallucinating, no matter how hard you try.

It’ never coming back, it’s all washed way with mud,

It’s all burnt down, now it’s called, the ashes of blood!

It wasn’t so easy to come all this way,

Bleedin’ every moment, burnin’ everyday.

The heart’s all bruised and cries for you,

You are far apart, there’s nothing you can do.

I know I was a dreamer, I dreamt all through,

I dreamt of Jesus that I had found in you.

But, I’ll live with this pain and the hurt inside,

Will we ever be together, let’s leave that for Jesus to decide!

CHORUS x 2

DATED – 26-03-2004

Relativism

I wana wake up with a drink in my hand and lust in my eyes.

I don’t wana wake up to a dream, I wana wake up to a reality.

I just wana see what comes, as it comes.

I don’t want to see something, that I can’t wish,

After all dreams are hard and reality is a BITCH!

DATED - 01-01-2004

Take it all

There’s a black hole in my head,

Lies doubtingly in the unconscious bed,

Tryin’ to figure out what you said,

Still no answers come out.

Sometimes wondering what to do,

Feeling the colors, black and blue,

Only wondering if I was you,

What would have happened.

CHORUS

Take it all, take my life,

Take the love but let me survive.

Take it all and let me fall

Take it far and leave me to die.

I wake up in the purple haze,

With the shine of sin and grace,

My eyes upon the nativity daze,

But still it’s waiting to reveal.

Still a bit of innocence lies back there,

Digging a hole in my heart, everywhere.

Feeling the agony of the cupids sphere,

But still it all fades away.

CHORUS x 3

DATED – 05-01-2004

Explain

Explain me this and explain me that,

Explain me the love, we once had.

Explain me the wet and explain me the dry,

Explain me the tears, we once cried.

Explain me the water, explain me the stream,

Explain me the dreams, we had once seen.

Explain me the dust  and explain me the sand,

Explain me why, you once held my hand.

CHORUS

If you can’t explain anything, don’t even try,

Because life ain’t only about livin; it’s also about how you die!

Even if you try, forget it. You don’t even know how to lie,

Explanation isn’t everything, it’s about how you feel deep inside!

Explain me the famous, explain me the great,

Explain me the promises you had once made.

Explain me the good and explain me the sin,

Explain me the sadness, which I live in.

Explain me the god, explain me the bible,

Explain me why, one is no more reliable.

Explain me the diamond and explain me the pearls,

Please, explain to me, what is this world.

CHORUS x 2

SOLO

If you can’t explain anything, don’t even try,

Because we all live once and then we die.

Explain me the red and the blue,

I’ll explain me and I’ll explain you!

DATED – 03-02-2004

The remains

What once seemed like a dream,

Today it’s a reality and the reality today is the biggest fear.

Everything dies and then fades away,

Leaving you with nightmares, in all kind of ways.

You feel so shit and with what all you did,

With the chances you got, you blew it all in a shot.

You cry and cry but the tears are dried,

The emotions and feelings feel like a sly.

Maybe if you just had it all once again,

Most probably things would have changed.

But after all, this is life,

No matter what, nothing here remains!

Dated – 26-11-2003

Life’s a fuck

In a dead man’s world, life is so blind

Dreams are a memory, that he’s left behind.

Nothing to live for, nothing to lose,

Livin’ and diein’ for, Cocaine and booze.

What does he care and what does he know,

Feelings are like a joint, you smoke and you blow!

Pockets all empty and nothin’ to hide,

Still looking for shit, because who the fuck wants to survive.

CHORUS

Life is a fuck and then you die,

So let’s sniff on cocaine, smoke weed and fly high.

Life’s like a joint, burning away,

You better smoke it up, before it’s too late.

Life’s like morphine, waiting to flow,

Enjoy the fuckin’ trip and let it go.

Because, I ain’t livin’, I’m livin’ to die

So fuck this world and let’s get fuckin’ high!

In a dead man’s world, life is so dark,

Everyone’s trippin’ in the acid park.

One more pill in the name of love,

One more lick, because who the fuck wants to give up.

Fuck the dreams because they ain’t comin’ true,

Just keep on rollin’ brother, for me and you.

Keep the flame burnin’ and let it go on,

Because this is my life and this is where I belong!

CHORUS x 2

Dated – 25-11-2003

I’d Be

If I was a dreamer, what would I be?

An angel, a devil or just a fantasy.

Maybe, I’d be all but wanted to be none,

For, Jesus has sent me a wish,

Still undone!

If I was pain, would I be hurt?

With love, life or just some words.

Maybe I’d heal but wanted to go deep,

For hurt has its own pleasures

But it’s hard to keep!

If I was death, would I rest in peace?

I’d forget the memories and my soul be at ease.

Maybe my bones would rest but my soul would live,

For Jesus still owes me,

The life I has to give!